Why I Stopped Blogging?

If you’ve been following my blog or my social media you’ll no that I haven’t blogged for a few months. The last time I blogged regularly was back in April 2017. I can’t believe it’s been nearly 9 months since I last sat and wrote a post.

I feel like I can’t come back to blogging regularly without owing you all an explanation. An explanation to where I’ve been and why I stopped blogging. So I thought I’d share all the factors to what stopped me from blogging.

The pressure of statistics/views, this was a definite factor to me stopping blogging. I felt like all I saw were other bloggers discussing statistics and views. I felt sort of inadequate because I didn’t have as many views as them at that meant I wasn’t important. All though I know it’s completely not true it’s how it made me feel. I felt myself obsessively checking the numbers to see if anything I was doing was improving my statistics etc. In all honesty it wasn’t healthy and it was then that I started to realise my life had started to revolve around likes, retweets and numbers. I am more than views and social media and there is definitely more to life.

Balancing life and blogging, it really isn’t as easy it might sound. I do only work part-time but I was honestly really struggling to find time to do everything that blogging consists of. Unless you’re a blogger I don’t think anyone quite realises all the work that comes with it. I class my blog as my second job but honestly when I got home from work I just wanted to sit in my pyjamas and binge watch Netflix… Not sit down and do a tonne more work. Now I’ve found a way too balance my time more and honestly I love being busy if anything. The workload is definitely something to consider when thinking about blogging. I’m not putting too much pressure on myself like I used to now. I know I’m not superhuman and I can’t create more time in the day to do things. I just need to plan and organise better!

Comparing myself, I compared myself to absolutely everyone about every little thing. I was constantly comparing others successes to my failures. I never took a second thought to my successes because they just didn’t seem good enough. My content didn’t feel good enough and my photography never looked as perfect as everyone else’s. I realise now that it all comes with experience and growth as a blogger but I just couldn’t see that. Not only did I compare everything about my blog I compared myself to other bloggers. Was I pretty enough to be a blogger? Was I skinny enough to be a blogger? Was I not good enough to do this? Although these questions seem pretty stupid now these are genuinely things I used to spend hours considering. I know now that I am who I am and I can’t change that. Everyone has a right to have a blog and be a blogger not matter who you are.

There’s no place for my content, I think I got to the point where I was forcing content I really didn’t care about or enjoy writing purely because I thought that was what people wanted. All the ideas I had just didn’t quite seem to fit into the blogger world. I didn’t have a niche for my blog but I desperately wanted one. So I forced myself into a box with no creativity and I regret that more than you imagine. I once saw someone say that it wasn’t about passion it was about popularity in blogging. Well do you know what it really isn’t! And if you think it is I guess I’ve really stopped caring. I want to be happy and passionate about my content and I want people to feel that when they read my posts. I’m no longer trying to be a niche blogger I’m just going to be me. I’m no longer stifling my creativity just to please others.

All of this just got on top of me and I honestly just lost my joy for blogging completely. I didn’t get the sense of achievement and happiness that I used to. Sitting down to write a blog post used to feel like a chore. I never want to feel that way again.

My time away has given me time to think. It’s given me time to find a more positive and healthy outlook on blogging. I’m so happy to be back; I will be blogging regularly 2x a week maybe even more from now on.

Thank you to everyone that helped me gain my confidence back. For boosting me when I really needed it. You made me realise that I am good enough. Thank you to everyone for your constant support of me and my blog. I can’t wait to see what 2018 brings us I hope its a big one. If you’ve ever felt this about blogging or your own blog feel free to start a discussion in the comments. Let’s talk about it!

I really hope you enjoyed this post,
Thank you for reading,
Alice-Tilly

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